A pencil drawing of Trish – a relative of mine. Some details on this drawing were deliberately omitted, while some details were added on assumption. Here and there, you can spot some errors. It’s a work-in-progress, prematurely halted. Took me four days to “finish” it, approximately two hours a day. Finally, something to match that of Isabelle’s bragging on how fast she can finish a drawing.
For this I used pencils numbered 2B, 5B and 7B semi-rough canson paper. It was very uncharacteristic of me to use a 7B, since I do not like the texture made by pencil with that number. But since I lost my 5B in the middle of my work on this sketch, and I don’t have the intention of prolonging the time of working on this one, I simply didn’t have a choice but to use 7B. No smudging stump was used.
Ironically, I have two 7B pencils in my disposal. I should learn how to use them properly.
Digital manipulations have been minimal. Instead of scanning it, I used a point-and-shoot camera to “digitalize” this sketch. Brightness and contrast level were slightly adjusted. Color balance were also adjusted to make this seems to be drawn on a parchment paper.
During my third year in college, I once used an eyeliner to create a portrait. I didn’t ask for permission from my female friend – thanks Anna!, by the way – for using her eyeliner. At first she was furious at first, of course. But the sketch turned out to be good somehow. But what I didn’t know then was that cockroaches find eyeliners delectable. They ate almost a quarter of the sketch.
June 2, 2000, Friday, it was about three o’clock in the afternoon. It was a hot day, but the sky was beautifully clear, and everything seemed to be so bright. There for the first time I met Sara. She belongs to the MWF afternoon classes on our taekwondo lessons. She is one year younger than me and she was playing tag with her younger sister when I found her. The moment I entered the empty gym, she glanced my way and saw me standing by the doorway looking at her. And something struck me hard and fast.
It was a very fine day and I’ll never forget it. And it was three days in a row that I spent training with her, until the promotion day. It was Sunday morning. Then after the promotion event itself she was gone with her parents and her younger sister. I went home bearing an overrated sadness and an even overrated fear that I might not see her ever again. One day I was star-struck then three days later I was feeling lost.
She was my ultimate crush. Well that’s all in the past now. Five years later I regained my communications with her. They were right. When it comes about her, I am simply a coward. All through the years thinking about her, I never really summoned the courage to tell her how I feel for her. I was simply too afraid to find out what might have been.
My head’s in a jam
Can’t take you off my mind
From the time we met
I’ve been beset with thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I found myself believing
That I just have to see you again
I can’t let you pass me by
I just can’t let you go
But I know I am much too shy to let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade before it can come true
Sometime during 2007 she gave me a message. She said: “…the worst regret we can have in life is not for the wrong things we have done, but from the right things we could have done but we never did”. It’s kind of cliché, or it could had been just forwarded. But I felt the irony of her sending me that message.
I can’t let you pass me by
I just can’t let you go
Let me say the things and say the words to let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
Than lose you
Or for love to fade before it can come true
But I never did. And chose to remain an invisible admirer. But I think she knows. Or at least I believe so, that she had a slight idea about my feelings. I don’t think she’s that mindless not to notice. And perhaps, indeed, I had done something wrong.
Perhaps I have all the good reasons not to tell her. I think it is better off that way. Looking back I had a colourful life after all.
Ahh… yes! For the first time this year I was able to pick up my tools of choice and work on a piece of paper. I have been very busy this first quarter of the year to be barely have time for my hobbies. It is very rewarding to finish one up despite the schedules and stuffs. I hope this 2nd quarter, I could have more time for this. I’ll find more time.
Marcel Iures. I first saw this actor on screen, it was I think 2005 I think, in the movie The Peacekeeper I just saw in a video player on board a bus. I was mystified by his character then.
And then, there was the movie Hart’s War. He portrayed a role of a German colonel – Col. Visser. I just found his role in that movie amazing! His arrogance was simply fantastic!
Well, on this pencil drawing I used 2B and 5B pencils on canson paper.
I just drew from a picture I got from the internet. Shame! But anyway I felt good just to be able to draw pictures again. This may not be perfectly done, but it is good enough for me.
This is a portrait of a young woman I made back in 2009.
I do think that sometimes an artist acts like a stalker; hovering and having their eyes set on their subject. Observing and taking note every single detail. I love drawing portraits of people without them knowing it. Although sometimes most people would find it weird and sometimes irritating. But when the artwork is done and they see your work, all would be well.
But unfortunately, as much as I wanted to, it was impossible for me to draw her from person. I had to resort to collecting pictures of her, then draw.
On this one, I used 2B and 5B Staedler pencils. It took me about a week to complete it. It is a sad thing for me that I don’t have much time for drawing.